“Balance every thought with its opposition. Because the marriage of them is the destruction of illusion.”
A while ago I was listening to a book on Audible, Jesus And The Essenes by Dolores Cannon. In this book, through a series of hypnosis sessions conducted by the author, Cannon communicates with a man named Sadhi who grew up in the Essene community during the time of Jesus. Sadhi speaks about his life in the Essene community, his education and his work. He is a teacher and student of “The Law” and we learn through his story that the young Yeshua ben Joseph is one of his students.
This book is packed with mind expanding information that will give insight and depth to many of the stories we regard as “myth” today. My biggest takeaway from the book, however, was how Sadhi responds to some of the questions posed to him by Cannon, “I know not, but I have heard...”, he says. From this simple shift in response, Sadhi’s words have taught me to clear my mind of false beliefs and patterns.
When we receive information, it informs us within the spectrum of our awareness. So, when teachings come to us, they meet us where we are and they will either expand or contract our consciousness accordingly. Additionally, information that is beyond our perception will remain veiled until we are able to perceive it. The reason “I know not, but I have heard...” is so powerful is because it can instantly expand our awareness if we apply it to what we think we know.
For me, this application has become a delightful game. What do I really know? What have I heard? What is the difference? Let’s start with one of my favorites: What is the sun? I have heard that the sun is a big ball of gas that is a bajillion degrees but I have not been to the sun so I know not what the sun is. Now people say that the sun is cold and electric. Others say that it is our direct connection to the 8th dimension. I know not what the sun is, but I have heard all of these things and each of their “truths” causes me to stretch a fundamental belief about my universe in order to contain those potentials.
The more we apply this to the things we “know”, the more we will come to realize how much we believe and how little we actually know. For many of us, not knowing the “truth” is terrifying. Since we were only a few years old, we have been moulded and conditioned by a cultural system that has disciplined and shamed us for not knowing. Under the threat of falling behind from a group of our peers, failing, or even being ostracized from the community, we have been made to remember and repeat as truth that which we have heard. We have parents, grand parents, great-grand parents… generations upon generations of ancestors that have experienced something similar, or worse.
In cases like this, not knowing can feel like a matter of life and death. So what happens when this trauma is carried over into adulthood? On the surface we can see these traumas manifest in the way we relate to others, how we receive new information, our desire to learn, our willingness to explore, our ability to express ourselves and be creative… These are patterns that we have evolved to rely on for survival. On a fundamental level, this makes us victims. This is certainly an important level of awareness for us to achieve. However, if we stop here, we can stymie our expansion by indulging the in sensations of victimhood. In which case, the solution to our problems will remain the same as the “truths” we have been repeating.
In order to escape the cycle of victimhood, we have to question what we know. So let’s explore that… I can only speak from my own experiences, and so I will illustrate for you a simple outline of the things I came to “know” as a child within the system:
America is the land of freedom.
Humans have been around for only thousands of years and we are the most evolved we have ever been.
We have evolved from “monkeys”.
The stories from our ancestors and world religions are rubbish and should not be regarded as a source of intellectual truth.
Intrinsic value is not a requirement for our currency.
War is the solution to suffering.
Earth is explained by Newtonian laws.
Evolution follows the laws of Darwin.
We only get one chance at life.
We are alone in the Universe.
I could write an essay on the fallacies each one of these statements, and maybe I will someday, but for now, I hope that some of you out there will resonate with them as they are presented here. If you don’t, consider yourself lucky.
I was raised in a non-religious household and went to public school for most of my childhood, save for two years (“4th and 5th grade”) when I was homeschooled. During those two years, most of the children that I engaged with came from very religious households and were homeschooled as well. My family is Catholic in ancestry and several people in my family have lived very spiritual lives as priests or healers. From my perspective, what our system does is teach us to doubt. We doubt the information that we’ve been told is rubbish, we doubt our potential when we’re told who we are, we doubt our community when we’re told of natural enemies, we doubt our value when it isn’t rewarded, we doubt our experiences when they aren’t physical, we doubt our spirit when we’re told it doesn’t exist, we doubt ourselves when we’re told we are wrong. These are the truths that have been passed down to us by pen and by sword. This is what we have heard so many times that, under the pain of “death”, we have come to believe as truth. This is not truth. This is dogma.
When spiritualists talk about “healing” or “ancestor healing”, etc., this is the work they speak of. If we do not do the work to uncover what we truly believe, we will bypass one of the most important and valuable things we can do as human beings – consciously differentiate truths. Each and every one of us is always in a state of differentiation, that is the nature of 3D. How we choose to define our world is wholly up to us. So when we question the things we think we know about who we are, where we come from and how we evolve, we open ourselves up to different definitions of ourselves.
At this point in time, how we define who we are has reached a new level of abstraction. In fact, it is reaching a new dimension and with that comes the opportunity for us to realize great things. We live in a world of highly advanced virtual reality machines in which all of us, to varying degrees, are partaking.
We have created avatars of ourselves in a dimension that we cannot touch but we still get to consciously partake in with complete and total control. So where does that eventually take us? At the moment, virtual reality machines are attempting to recreate realities of ultimate realness. What this suggests is that we are becoming highly advanced creators and it is only a matter of time before we step into a totally new frontier. One that we will not be ready for if we don’t understand a few things about this reality first.
We can learn from virtual reality and cultivate a deeper understanding of our current one by applying the ideals of virtual reality to our own. Virtual reality machines serve to provide our consciousnesses with an experience that is as real as possible. The only difference is that in VR, we get to have the awareness that we have chosen this virtual experience. Because of this, things don’t really hurt when they “happen” and we can do whatever we want, but also the wine doesn’t get you drunk and the food doesn’t taste like much… Life and death are nothing more than the pressing of a power button: none of it really matters because we know it isn’t actually real.
So what is left between realities but awareness and sensation? To gain in one is to lose in the other. As humanity pushes the limits of this polarity, we as individuals have the opportunity to leap ahead consciously into a state of unity between these realities. Awareness and sensation are the two extremes of bliss which seems to be the fundamental motive for creating a virtual reality. It is also one of the fundamental motives of spiritual seekers. The balance of awareness and sensation is what creates the state of bliss in a human. We do not need machines for this. What we need is consciousness and understanding.
For some of us bliss might be defined as being free of pain and illness, for others it might be experiencing love or aligning their work and passion. For many of us, it’s all of these.
Yet even in a video game one has to do things to attain things. That is the nature of things. At the beginning you get to choose simple things like whether you want to be a wizard or a troll… maybe you shoot arrows, maybe you prefer a wand… Whatever. The rest is a combination of unknown events and challenges that bring you to the ultimate version of the avatar you created. The more you play it, the better you become. Is this not the nature of life? There is a story happening and the less you know, the better it is. There is a part of us that plays life and there is another part that suffers it but the experience of each can be bliss. Remember how you felt watching a movie as a child? How do you feel about watching movies now? This same principle can be applied to our life stories.
So what does this have to do with conscious differentiation and how do we apply it to our lives? When we are consciously differentiating, we are using our wisdom to measure experiences and events. We look at what we’ve learned and ask ourselves what we know. The application of this practice strengthens and expands our awareness which can heal the sensations of suffering in our story.
When we expand our awareness, we become a container for more knowledge. We are able hear more things, and know the wisdom in the transmissions. There is always wisdom in the transmissions, our job is to divine it.
When I started digging into the fundamental beliefs I have learned from the system, I realized that I had unknowingly committed the first 21 years of my consciousness to learning a very narrow set of teachings. From those teachings I had adopted many deep patterns that defined the way I engaged with my world: competition, doubt, arrogance, self-centeredness, and entitlement – to name a few. For example, I believed that if I did the things I was told to do that I should succeed. I believed that we are alone in the universe and so I saw myself as an individual on Earth. I believed in the danger of being wrong and so I fought to be right.
When we start digging into our deepest beliefs, it can stir up a lot of overwhelming feelings and we need to know how to process them in a healthy way. When we go through a shedding of beliefs, our brain needs to have something to replace the old programs. This is when we must access our heart and listen to its guidance. As we open ourselves up to new ideas and rekindle our desire to learn and explore, new information will come to us. This information will find us because we seek it and it will confirm our understanding in synchronicities. To become truly adept at this, practice taking on different beliefs and observe how those beliefs change the way you experience life. If there is improvement, then the belief is beneficial – for now.
For me, when I started believing in reincarnation, I understood my function as both a spiritual and organic being. I am made of the same elements as the planet herself and my identity can be expanded to include a feeling of love and commitment to a future beyond my comprehension. My consciousness was expanded again when I opened up to the possibility of Extra-Terrestrials. I became aware of my responsibility as a representative of Earth. To my knowledge, I have not witnessed in my waking life an official ET experience, however I have heard many things. I have sought to inform myself of quantum mechanics, ancient wisdom cultures, contemporary science, magic, metaphysics, electric universe theory, and many alternative perspectives on new data. What I have learned has expanded my consciousness and made me a better human being. The benefits of critically examining what I know and replacing toxic beliefs with new, expansive ones are a confirmation of their power.
Beliefs make us and they change us. When we work to expand our awareness, our consciousness is better able to differentiate between things and that makes space within us to support spiritual growth. When we give ourselves permission to question our own beliefs, we allow ourselves the freedom to realize how we are creating our experiences by how we define them. This is what awareness does – it gives us sovereignty within the game.
At this time, we are faced with a fundamental decision: evolve or expire. Do we move forward into a new age of reality with a narrative that supports killing and oppressing our own species as a solution to suffering? Do we do the work to heal ourselves of the systemic traumas to our consciousness that have normalized violence and killing? Do we move forward believing that the current state of the human species is at it’s highest evolution or do we open ourselves to a greater potential?
This inner exploration of truth is also being played out externally in the form of “fake news”. Our reality is filled with stories, most of which are designed to polarize us. It is nearly impossible to believe anything that is said anymore and trustworthy sources feel like a myth from long ago. We are all being confronted with the fragility of “truth” and it is calling us to go inside and differentiate it for ourselves. We can divine truth because truth is divine.
This is what it means to heal. When we choose to live in spirit, it means that we choose to live in the space between awareness and sensation and divine our utmost truth. This is the solution to the problems that overwhelm us. If we resolve those problems in ourselves, we resolve them in our world. When we heal ourselves of the need to be right, then humility becomes a source of power. If we resist the presence of ignorance, arrogance becomes a weakness which we end up violently defending. How we use our power and learn from our mistakes is a measure of our grace as a species. No matter what we do, how we are called to express our power, we have the ability to consciously define our experiences and learn from them. It all depends on who we believe ourselves to be… and that is up to you.